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May is supposed to be a month of joy (ok it still is coz of the election, anyway...), and a month of sleepless nights

Except that didn’t happen

I can’t remember how many times i have cried myself to sleep
Or cried while bathing
Or while looking at Rae and Jiunn playing together

They make such great sister and brother to you little one, but you’ll never got to see them

You have the most ultrasound pictures, yet, when i finally got to see you, is the time we had to say goodbye

Everytime when an ambulance pass by, there will be a sudden nervousness, remembering the time when i was in the ambulance, looking out seeing all the cars tailgating the ambulance, thinking “What if they crashed into this ambulance?”

And whenever i step into the hospital for check ups, i will still overwhelmed by emotions, the hope, disappointment, despair, and the sadness.

The hardest part was when Rae and Jiunn pointed at my still bulging tummy, and said “Baby?”, my heart sanked, and i had to tell them, he is gone. Rae never quite got it, but she can sense my sadness, and never ask again. But nowadays Jiunn always points at my boobs and said “Baby?”, ok.........*rolled eyes*

Sorry my little one
Sorry that i was not strong enough to hold you longer in my body
Sorry that i didn’t get to show you, how beautiful the world is
And how wonderful you brother and sister
And of course, your papa

Somehow i learnt that
It will never be okay, but it’s okay
And thank you my sister who shared with me this book Tear Soup, learning to accept the grief, and knowing that, ok, i’m still normal

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Grief is something not many people talk about, yet it affects deeply. I remember when everything was done, i looked at these blog posts, and instantly i was calmed. Words of comfort, and the words of knowing the same feeling, was just what i needed the most at that time. Somehow, if you are currently in the same boat as me, just to let you know, i’m by your side

 

 

Dear little one,

Thank you for showing me the strength of your little body, and the joy you have given to us at the first few months. Though your sister was not happy initially knowing you are a boy ("I already have a brother, i want a sister" that's what she said), but she was totally looking forward seeing you day after day. And your brother Jiunn, i can imagine the mess you both will make, if you are still here

Love you always, and we’ll see each other again somewhere

Lily of the Valley, beautifully painted by the talented  Jie Yan

Lily of the Valley, beautifully painted by the talented Jie Yan

Was diagnosed with subchorioinic hematoma in womb, and with the constant bleeding i was in bed rest, thus triggered pulmonary embolism, and somehow on the 6-month, i had PPROM (preterm premature rupture of membrane), and the pregnancy was terminated

Marie Claire Interview

So in September i received an email from Natasha of Marie Claire saying they wanted me to answer few questions, and of course i said YES! I thought there were only 1 or 2, but they sent me 11 questions! So i answered them, sent in some photos, and she said it would be published in November

So patiently i waited

and waited

LOL

And finally it's November, that time i was in the hospital, enjoying my little staycation

The food was actually not bad and i ate more in hospital compared at home lol

The food was actually not bad and i ate more in hospital compared at home lol

 And my husband bought me this

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MY INTERVIEW IS OUT, ON A FULL PAGE OMGGGGGGG

DO YOU SEE MA NAMEEEEEE

DO YOU SEE MA NAMEEEEEE

I thought it's only a few lines, on a conversation bubble, with my headshot, but NOOOO A FULLLL PAGEEEEEEE OMGGGGGGG, i nearly screamed in the wad hahaha

Ok now only i realise they spelt my IG handle wrongly (it's  helloglooomi ), but it's ok i forgive you LOL

Ok now only i realise they spelt my IG handle wrongly (it's helloglooomi), but it's ok i forgive you LOL

I'm glad they chose this picture, coz she's the one that got me into this whole calligraphy thingy!

I'm glad they chose this picture, coz she's the one that got me into this whole calligraphy thingy!

So here is the interview, un-edited version (and i'm quite surprised they didn't edit alot of my replies! Coz i worried they might find my replies mundane so i wrote alot for them lol)

What’s a usual day like for you?

Normally i wakes up at 9am. Morning and noon will be busy with my 2 kids, Rae and Jiunn (shower, breakfast, abit of reading and singing, lunch), after lunch, when the kids go to nap, i’ll plan out my work (mixing watercolors or ink, doing design drafts), or replying emails, so once they wake up it’s dinner time! Luckily my mum stay close to me so i always head over there for dinner, and after back home another round of shower, reading and singing. After putting them to bed which is normally around 9pm, that’s the time i start my work. Sometimes when it’s busy i’ll work until 3-4am, and the day goes the same the next day :)

Why do you do what you do/ Why Calligraphy/art?

I have always been a creative person and fascinated by typography and lettering, but it’s only 3 years ago that i get to know about calligraphy. I find it very therapeutic, and there’s so much to learn about! And to be able to see the progress i made in front of myself is an amazing feeling as well. When currently everything is moving so fast, calligraphy allows one to slow down and just focus on writing the letters. Also through this calligraphy journey i’ve learned that practice does make progress, one just needs to be patient and dedicate the time!

How did Crafted by Day come about?

I become a stay-at-home mum 4-year ago after i delivered my eldest daughter Rae, and honestly the initial period was very difficult, as i had been working for very long time and couldn’t get used to being at home with a baby. So the phone is my window to the world. And one day i saw a post on instagram of an oblique pen holder, that’s the moment i started to explore more about calligraphy. That’s also the time where workshops are blooming, so i took workshops after workshops, from calligraphy to brush lettering, from chalk lettering to watercolor, as well as taking online courses. At the same time i started to share more of my work on my IG @helloglooomi. And after i got a commission job from Sherly of Tie The Knot, who is super encouraging, that’s when i decided to set up Crafted by Day

What memorable responses have you had to your work?

To have clients saying they love the design even though it’s just the initial messy drafts, that’s the best!

What is your dream project?

To be able to do lettering on store’s window front, that’ll be awesome!

Describe yourself in three words.

Positive, carefree and creative!

What’s your guilty pleasure?

Hot chocolate with chocolate chip cookies!

What’s your favourite artwork?

It was the first commission job i got from Tie The Knot, to create table mats and thank you notes with watercolor and calligraphy. Looking back the artwork was very raw and amateur, but it was the starting point to everything else.

This <3

This <3

Who would you love to collaborate with in the future?

Vivy Yusof! I adore her energy on managing both career and family. But at the same i have been very blessed and am very happy to work with current clients who trusted me to create pieces for their big day!

What music do you listen to when you do your artwork/Do you listen to music when you do your artwork?

Nope i prefer to keep it quiet as the day has been very noisy with the kids screaming and shouting, i need some quiet time for myself to work :)

Do you have a secret talent?

I can bend my thumb to my wrist

Nah my secret talent and Sherly said i can join the circus LOL

Nah my secret talent and Sherly said i can join the circus LOL

So hope you enjoyed reading it, and get to know me a lil bit more better! Thank you to Marie Claire team for giving me the chance! Someday in the future i will definitely be sharing this with Rae and Jiunn, that you know, just do what you love, do it well, and the rest will follow :)

5-Year

It has been 5-year since i married to my best friend

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Our love story :) 

Our love story :) 

It was in a car ride we discussed about marriage and decided to get married

So yeap no proposal no ring no fancy fireworks

Nope, no bling

Nope, no bling

I actually insisted on not having a ring (or proposal), but somehow he felt it’s important to have one, so we engaged my cousin to do up a simple gold and platinum ring (she even threw me a lil diamond yay!). But guess who is not wearing it now hmmm 

After sometime he did mention he actually wanted to have a proposal, even consulted his best friend, but somehow the plan got drifted away. So every now and then i'll tease him that i'm still waiting for the big surprise!

*So guys, don't believe what the girls said and just give her a proposal! If not she'll bug you for life!

I still remember

The planning

The sourcing

The running around

And luckily, no arguments throughout the whole journey

And i also remember the days leading to our wedding day it was raining cats and dogs everyday!

Fluffing the poms with my sis the day before the big day, and moments after this a heavy downpour!

Fluffing the poms with my sis the day before the big day, and moments after this a heavy downpour!

We were worried, but also thought to ourself, whatever comes, let it come

But it was a beautiful & joyful day

My bouquet was made by my talented sis!

My bouquet was made by my talented sis!

I'm so glad to have my grandpa to witness my wedding, but sadly he couldn't make it to see the birth of Rae. This is the picture i'll treasure forever

I'm so glad to have my grandpa to witness my wedding, but sadly he couldn't make it to see the birth of Rae. This is the picture i'll treasure forever

And 5-year later

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We make it a ritual to come back to this place every October to celebrate our wedding anniversary, and always glad to see the familiar faces who helped us alot in our wedding dinner

2 this year, adding a little one next year

It'll be a busy 2018!

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12-year together & 5-year married

To my best friend

I've told you many times but really, i'm so lucky to have you

Thank you for all the love

Let's grow old together

:)

 

Photography by Jenny Sun and Cash Studio